This is post is somehow related to a previous blog post. If you haven’t read that then you might give it a try….to visit click on the link given below…the battle of animo
I have a habit of over thinking. In fact I am very nostalgic. I like changes in my life but I am so dumb that I keep dreaming about the past ,thinking about the alternate realities that might have existed.
Sometimes I believe I am just a drama queen. Well I don’t think that’s bad. There are people who think life is meaningless and spend there lives in a silly irony, there are people who slaughter mankind in the name of religion, I mean terrorists and similarly there are people who love to dramatize any situation and can go to any extent to do so. Well I am one such dramatic people.
However that day as I walked into the Bank Colony- a place where I had spent the whole of my childhood- I was put in a trance. I have been to trances before but never have pushed my mental abilities to such an extent.
When I left bank colony I was 14. My life had gone through a major change. The world seemed to have changed. Pressure of studies, more tuitions, moving to a new place, new friends, changes in my body and what startled me the most was a strange desire for the opposite gender. Things went on like this. Then began my days of love. Pondered one whole year in the false belief that when someone says ,” I love u” they really mean to stay faithful and committed. But after an year when THINGS were over I suddenly found myself stuck between my ego , my desires , my sense of irony and of course academic pressure.
But that day the tables turned. As I walked in the place I had left years ago I could see those two worlds clashing.
The world I had left behind and the world in which I live now. I remember how happy I was back in those days that world which nourished me all about my childhood. But this new world…what has it given me apart from sorrows and regrets and blames?
So the worlds clashed. Deafening loud noise was produced. Sparks scattered. Flames everywhere. The ground cracked. Strange demons flew out from the ABYSS .
The fall has indeed began…
It’s time I fall… down ….even below the hell..
Indeed the fall has come.
To be continued in my next post…”into the abyss”.To visit click on the link.